Time to search for job. well, kind of pathethic. don't know why..... i guess i am so afraid of being rejected!!!! Human are like that, i think, they are fear of losing even they have not tried. Ironic

Hanging out with May again. We BACK together. we fight, we seperate, we back together, it's like a cycle. this happens once a year since we met on 2000. how dramatic!!!i know you are a good friend and i treasure that.

Dad is doing fine that cheers me up all the time *why i still feel frustrated,nothing should be upset anymore*. this is the best thing in life seeing everyone appears healthly in front of me. We just wanna spend more time with HIM, that it is. Being with him everyday,seeing him laugh and watching him acting normal are gift to us.

My sweetheart, you, you are just amazing. babe, you know, i am really deeply falling in love with you. i can't stop thinking of you. you said i am crazy. yes i am crazy about you. guess what, growing up means to love and to be loved,  i am addicted to you. dummy!!!!i just can't image we seperate one day that will be the end of the world........

i never feel so close with someone, and you are the only one . i can't promise you i will love you more than myself but i can promise you i will love you more than yourself do.it's true. i knew you do, you always love me more than yourself.

May asked me why i worte i want to marry him if he proposes. the true is *when the day the doctor told me things were uncertain, i was desperated. he was being with me the whole night, holding me tight and he promised  he will loving me, taking care of me like my Dad's do if one day he's not around anymore. he will play his role. and every single time when i think of that moment i cry because i know you meant it! 

Has been  a year since graduated. Time flies...........people never live their lives for the real moment, it's true. they complain they miss something which are so important in their lives and they wish to go back to fix it, meanwhile, they are fear what will come in the future.

stuck in the past, regretting, fancinating, fearing the future, depressing,  praying.

Year review

Me and him has been together for a year, 12 months and 365 days. it's incredible. I just love him so much. if he asks me to marry him, i think i will say yes for sure. sometimes i know he is not the type i dream of. but he is special and he is a gift to me and my family in this critical moment. thanks god sending me this wonderful man to help me out, to heal my wounds.

I love you with all my heart. Once i found you,i knew i will love you forever!!

Distraction is a destruction for construction  (from the Science of Sleep)

Have been with him for more than 4 months time. happier?frustrated??romantic??all i could tell is very SWEET, every moments that we've been together was like the first date, first cuddle and first kiss. yet we got in many fights and every single times i am the one who started it. i was acting like a bitch, being picky, grumpy  and moody ...........god you are just too good too gentle to me that you apologise to me, make me laugh, help me learn from mistake and teach me how to live happier......................Babe, somehow i had that crazy thought of marrying you and we are both kissing each other passionately in a wedding. the rest feel so glad to us!!

Friends: sucks!!! Falling in love with a guy means less time spending with friends... i confess that i always want to be with him more than going to friends' gathering. i am selfish, you could say ...don't you know he's just being too sweet, caring, tolerance and considerate, i can't bear not seeing him when i have the time.

Family : doing great, i think, i realise i have to spend more time with them especially they are getting old. time to be mother and father's girl.

Career: so far so good. not much to do, not challenging, bore, but have to stay and see what i really knee to do..teaching??PR?? master degree?????

The past half year was supposed to be extrememly frustrated (job, relationshps,illness), and "you" help me out and brought me delight  and romantic moments!!! babe, you are the one for me!!!i am belong to you! 

家變----其實, 甚麼也在變.

我, 害怕這種蘊釀中的變化- 可笑, 我更害怕急劇的變化.

那些突如奇來的入侵使我快要倒下......跌下無盡的深淵...一去不返...

*莫明我就喜歡你,

深深地愛上你

沒有理由, 沒有原因.

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